I’m still trying to embrace and enjoy every holiday through out the year. But let’s face it, these autumn and winter holidays are more precious than the spring and summer holidays are.

Maybe, it’s our human defense mechanism kicks in during the winter months, hibernation, the cold, and then we have the BIG celebrations of the year. It makes us/forces us, to come out of hibernation, aka comfort zone, to celebrate. Truly not fair to everyone.

I’ve just taken a late epic trip that ended on 11/20, and that might be my new answer to finding the holidays so lonely and abysmal. I’m now playing catchup to get the house tidy and prepared for Christmas.

I’ll try to make it festive, as it will appear so to everyone who cones for a visit or sees it from the outside.

But, while I still enjoy the process of getting the house ready, it is in fact, a process. While I feel I am getting better and more comfortable as to where I am now in my new life, new roles, there is still a huge emptiness in my heart, mind, soul. I try to put it all in a box and only lift the lid on rare occasions.

After all, I still have many more holidays to go…