It’s been just over three years that Steve has passed away. Yet, I still have so many times that I have to flounder on how to get things done.

My latest adventure is how to use our weed whacker as an edger along the sidewalk. I finally used it about two weeks ago to whack the hill behind our garage. It only took me about an hour to clear the weeds, but it took me about 3 hours to use two hands to put on my chapstick ! I was good by the end of the day… lip crisis averted !

Talk about the shakes!

I rely heavily on those that know me and are closest to me. But then, I think, as always, I’m not their problem. They aren’t responsible for making sure I can get things done around here. I mostly just ask for advice. And that’s because I want tips … you can do this… you can try this… you can expect this… and so on . Because, in my mind, lack of results equals failure and I’m not failing… not yet any way.

I realize, that there will always be a first time for me doing a lot of things. I thank YouTube all the time for help. I also thank everyone who helps me out… with daily firsts of any kind. And that’s probably because, Steve , is not here telling me, I can do this or I got this. I no longer have my cheerleader right behind me, even if he was silent, he was supporting me. So, I tend to not have the confidence I need.

But, I know, there will always be pockets … pockets throughout my life, they may be small, they may be big or unexpected, but… I’ll keep the knowledge of what Steve has taught me tucked into my pocket. I’ll hear him guiding me first, his voice talking to me in my head, I’ll see things he did in my memories, and then, just then… I’ll turn to YouTube! 😂

Keep your pockets, hearts and minds open ♥️