Til death do us part – famous vows. What happens when one half of the equation has already departed?

One of us is still living and trying to find the path to still live and be alive and find joy and happiness, but… if I’m being honest, it’s just a complacent joy.

I love and enjoy everything I do.

I can pick and choose what I want to do, but I often think about what the eventual outcome is now.

Will my children benefit from this household improvement upon my demise?

My kids have told me, to live out my wishes and not worry about household things like new windows or garage improvements. But sometimes these things bring me a sense of accomplishment, but I hate spending the money. I’d rather travel somewhere than spend $5000 on windows! Wouldn’t you ? There are always so many things on my “list”!

I guess I’ll just keep on going from here, as I see fit… I vow to sleep well before I make a big decision, in case I hear from Steve, who I do hear from on occasion, and I’ll still always wonder, at the end of the day, the end of the night, at the end of it all… where do I go from here?